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January 31, 2005
what is decadent?
as i said in my previous post, it's funny how quickly one's idea of decadent can change. a few days ago it was potato chips and french fries. now, it's a specific kind of rich cheese.
coffee. it was a daily thing, before. every morning. finally the execution of the habit was more appealing than the coffee itself. same with fries, and hamburgers, and everything else i ate over and over. why do i do that? it's a kind of laziness that settles in. i stop cooking, even though i know that i could do some cooking and it wouldn't be that big of a burden. and i know that i'd enjoy the variety, if i put a little effort in.
why is moderation so tricky? all the way on, all the way off-- those are easy. i did manage to be moderate and maintain my weight for a while, and then, eventually, things always start to devolve and i have to start over again from the beginning.
maybe each time i get better at moderation and maintenance. i wonder, if i shared my household with another person or people, how would this be different? everyone says that cooking for one is hard, but i've only ever cooked for one, so i don't know. most of my friends and boyfriends have encouraged me to eat badly, in both overt and in more subtle ways. i seem to do better when i make choices alone. (although i have to give mad props to d. in this department; he's almost always willing to go to the company cafe instead of out for lunch, and i make some of my best choices in the cafe.)
as i cook the majority of my own meals, i can see how my kitchen frustrates, with no dishwasher and minimal counter space; access to cabinets is often poor, and even accessing the trash is a pain. i wonder how a good kitchen would change my eating habits. i find good tools and good work spaces a pleasure to use, perhaps more than the average person. i am currently in love with my new garlic press and fresh garlic goes into almost everything i make now, as a result. what if i were in love with my whole kitchen?
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today was ok, i felt a little horrid before lunch, and quite irritable for a while in the afternoon. tired when i got home. it was good that i had a roast in the crock pot that i could tear into the moment i walked in the door. my fast-growing black tea addiction is replacing my coffee habit, but at least it has fewer carbs, costs far less, and has less caffiene.
Posted by lisa at January 31, 2005 09:55 PM | TrackBack
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