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March 03, 2004
radio anxiety
i had a dream last night that i was on the air and could not figure out what to play next. i kept wandering through the stacks and picking up stuff and then realizing that it was terrible, too terrible to play. finally the song that was on ran out and there was just dead air, silence, and i kept wandering through the stacks, my mind a total blank.
at the same time that horrible guy chris had called the station to make a correction to the concert calendar. he didn't say who he was but i recognized his voice. so the whole time i was wandering the stacks, i had the phone to my ear, waiting as he researched the correct information, which was taking forever. he wasn't saying anything, but just being on the phone with him was dividing my attention. i think i finally hung up on him without saying anything.
i think rick was there, too, and i felt very self-conscious about choosing just the right music, since he paid me such a nice compliment after my last show. of course, the self-imposed pressure to do a Really Good Show was crippling and was much of the reason my mind was a total blank as i thought about what to play next.
Posted by lisa at March 03, 2004 02:14 PM | TrackBack
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I've had that dream :) Wandering around blankly looking for something to play, while the agonizing silences stretch out.
Posted by: Sarah on March 3, 2004 03:14 PM
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