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December 31, 2003
my inner house needs renovation
i guess it's a good thing that i like to renovate houses.
this morning i dreamed that i visited the house of my friend h.
(h. is a friend who symbolizes something in particular to me. h. recently went on disability, i believe for depression. h. is no longer at work. h. did not return my last email. to me, h. is someone who was overcome by a force inside, a force that i see and fear in myself.)
it was an old victorian in need of a lot of renovation. i was there with some radio station people. i remember the bedroom was occupied by a california king with a dark burgundy cover. the bed was much too large for the room. wonder what that means. heh.
i remember a vast cast-iron door, like the door of a potbelly stove, except larger than a person. i was afraid to open the door, but someone else did and we found a secret staircase inside the house. i remember in the landing was h.'s diary (which i didn't read, though i thought it might shed some light on h's state of mind).
i remember thinking, "this is just the sort of house i like to work on" (which it was), and what it shame it was that h. seemed unable to make any headway with the place.
there was more, but now i don't remember. a lot of running around with radio station people, i think.
Posted by lisa at December 31, 2003 04:51 PM | TrackBack
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