February 28, 2006
big head dream
last night i dreamed that i had a disproportionately large head as a child. i was horrified, but relieved that i had grown into my head over the years.
in other news, i went to the dentist yesterday and i was so not in the mood to have my gag reflex and jaw-holding-open stamina tested, and once again my dentist begged me to get braces.
the waterproofing investigation is interesting. i cannot emphasize enough what a tremendous resource my neighborhood e-mail list is. within minutes of my posting, i'd gotten two horror stories about the waterproofing company that i've gotten a quote from already, and a lot of interesting stories about how others in my situation took care of their gutter drainage issues and that in turn solved their basement water problems, without hiring a waterproofing company. which is something i'd made an attempt at last year, an attempt that didn't work well– but maybe this year i'll have another, more serious go at it.
i was suddenly allergic to something last week. runny nose, weepy eyes at random intervals. it's better now. whatever it is, it's in my house. i put a pleated allergen filter in my heating system last night, and started drooling over refurbished dyson vacuum cleaners.
so, for those keeping track, i am contemplating spending vast oodles of cash on many things, and have made decisions about none. these things include, but probably aren't limited to: a car, a dry basement, a vacuum cleaner, wacky retro dinette chairs, and oh who knows, maybe a little kitchen renovation work.
as for the car, i'm currently torn between the practical (a diesel jetta wagon) and the fun (a new beetle convertible).
i'm leaning toward the convertible.
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Category: dreamsDecember 21, 2005
that was not nice
yesterday at work was very stressful. enough said.
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i dreamed this morning that i had replaced my cozy 1946 cottage with a rambling, crumbling victorian. literally replaced the house, moved my perfectly good house away and put a 1930's crap pile in its place.
i know it was a crap pile because part of the living room ceiling tore away as i was watching, leaving half the living room exposed to the uninsulated ceiling. my mother was with me. indicating the room above the living room, she said, "now, that's not a room." i considered remodeling such that the living room would have 20 foot ceilings. then, as i watched, terrified, the roof tore away, leaving a gaping, windy hole.
i went to the kitchen to find the phone number of the roofing company i used once to repair a leak on my cottage (oh, my cottage, why did i get rid of you?) my mom pulled a phone book from someplace odd, like the microwave, and i searched for the listing. the phone book made no sense. it did not seem to be in alphabetical or any other discernible order.
i gave up, and woke up, groggy and disoriented.
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my show last night did not suck too badly, and it was one of the smoothest running shows i've had all year. the web cam and online request line appeared to be broken, but everything else was working pretty well. checking over the last ten days worth of online playlists, not a single one seems to have fallen victim to our old loss of session problems (immediately recognizable because the dj winds up with multiples of the same playlist). could it be that i actually managed to... fix it? golly.
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Category: dreamsDecember 02, 2005
nap #1: very strange
i am home today. my primary goal is to nap. I will not allow myself to contemplate secondary goals.
during the last part of nap #1, i experienced an extended period of dreaming while being or trying to be awake. i was definitely in sleep paralysis, yet trying to move, a feeling that i hate. first i was trying to get my glasses from my bedside table, but i could not see. i tried many things to trick myself into seeing, none of which worked.
then there was a spider in the room. then it was a GIANT SPIDER and moses was holding me in front of him as protection from the GIANT SPIDER, which is not how it is supposed to work. the cat is supposed to protect me from all eight and six-legged things, giant or otherwise. living things with more than two pairs of legs are supposed to be his specialty. given that i was paralyzed with sleep, this was especially distressing.
then the most distressing thing of all happened– i heard a baby crying very close by, possibly in my room. i couldn't move to pin down the location of the child.
then i woke up, starvinghungry. i am going to q-shack now.
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Category: dreamsOctober 01, 2005
yep.
i dreamed this morning that i was halfway into cleaning up the back bedroom when halloween party guests started arriving. i'm pretty sure i didn't have any food or drinks ready, nor had i cleaned the rest of the house. i remember standing there saying, "the sad thing is that i have all these cool halloween decorations and i guess i'm not going to get to use them".
standard lisa anxiety dream. i missed out on them for roswell this year so i guess i have to make up for that somehow.
but the thing that makes me really sad is that, in my dream, cleaning the back bedroom was so easy. it was happening almost magically. in reality, that's not going to be the case.
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Category: dreamsJuly 23, 2005
funny, minty little dream
i had a funny dream that i went to visit minty so that we could go for a walk, and brought moses too. she was getting ready to take a nap when i came over, so she set me up with something to read in her living room. I wondered why I had come over without calling first. How rude of me! Teen Girl Squad and the Professor were not in effect. for some reason, i put moses in a police car that was floating in a lake with many other cars.
while minty was asleep, another woman came over and rang the doorbell. minty came down and answered the door and talked to the woman for a while.
i realized that i'd left moses in that police car for far too long, so i swam over to retrieve him and couldn't find him! then i realized that a cop was carrying a tabby cat with white feet and belly.
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i think the reason i dreamed about cars floating in water is because yesterday i saw some video footage of the tsunami coming into a village in indonesia. more on that later.
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Category: dreamsJune 25, 2005
it was a very odd morning
woke up just before seven, fully awake. had a slow breakfast then around 9, felt all heavy and sleepy, so moses and i took a nap.
while i napped, i dreamed that i was on a vacation with my family. we were visiting my grandparents' house in maryland, and this was at a time when grandpa was still alive, and grandma was mostly still there but kinda loopy. i had brought moses with me. we were packing up to leave for the next part of our trip, and i realized that i had not brought a litterbox for moses and didn't know where he'd been doing his kitty business. so in the midst of the chaos of packing, and explaining this to my mother, i started searching around for his artifacts.
artifacts of one nature located, i started cleaning up the mess, then realised that one of his hindlegs was badly injured and he could barely get up on to the bed. so i didn't know what to do... and thinking i should stay behind so i could take him to a vet, cursing the fact that i'd not driven my own car, and wondering how the hell there was no litterbox when the three master planners-- me, mom, and grandma-- particularly in matters of travel and pet and child care-- were on the job. oh, and i wondered what posessed me to go on vacaion with my family for an entire week.
and then i woke up, relieved that moses was sleeping happily next to me, not injured and quite healthy as far as i can tell.
i then checked the mail and there was not one but two BPAL packages, containing ultraviolet (which i am wearing now), black annis (smells intriguing), somnus, and a special bonus present of jabberwocky with the somnus. and a letter from dsw saying that my credit card was stolen from them.
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Category: dreamsApril 26, 2005
dreamishness
maaaaaany strange dreams and awakenings at odd hours last night. the one this morning i still have some memories of; i found a late model, rust free vw beetle at a yard sale and paid cash for it on the spot. this segue'd into one of my travelling dreams (a very common theme in my dreams; i travel great distances, over all sorts of terrain, often covering entire cities). the end goal of my travels was to drive the beetle to... school. my old high school in raleigh. on my way in, i stopped at a clubhouse where my fellow students often stopped, to see if anyone i knew was there. at that point, the beetle, which i'd had trouble driving due to the seat not being adjusted properly, became a sort of rideable umbrella. like riding on a motorized pogo stick. as i entered raleigh, the sky turned cloudy, then dark as night, and i wished i'd driven spacepod. the difficulty with a rideable umbrella, see, is that you can't ride it if you need to use it as an umbrella! i met a man as i was crossing a street, and told him i was going to school... "high school, actually!" he didn't seem to think this was odd, though I certainly did. aren't i a little old for high school? i was glad to see that the walk/don't walk sign was also flashing the time and temperature, and that i had 20 more minutes to get to school.
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Category: dreamsMarch 09, 2005
crazydreamworld
i dreamed this morning that it was right before mom and wayne's wedding, and i was thinking... ahhh, i can't publish it because it's kind of insulting to my family members. ask me if you want to know. it was funny to me in my dream.
i dreamed that my cousin megan was completely deaf and was excited to see me, two things that i think have absolutely no grounding in fact whatsoever.
night before last i was dreaming about my wet basement, then the dream turned to flooding, an oncoming flood, and i awoke thinking i should put a little puffy floatation vest on moses so he would float happily. oddly it wasn't really a nightmare even though it woke me up. the vest would be cute.
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Category: dreamsJanuary 30, 2005
the first rule of drama club is: don't talk about drama club.
awoke to a truly strange dream this morning. i was part of a group of people who were acting out a drama as if it were our daily lives. my strongest memory from the dream was realizing that the drama was getting boring, and i'd need to do something to make it dramatic again. so, like the worst hack screenwriter, i decided to kill someone off. not literally; i just lied about them being dead. i pulled my old college friend nikos aside and said, "i need to talk to you... i wanted to tell you this first, before the others. someone has died." i was making this up as i was going along so until the words came out of my mouth, i didn't know who i was going to kill off. "it's george." george is one of nikos' best friends from college. as i sat there watching nikos react to the news of his friend's death, i realized what a cruel thing i had done to him. i leaned over and whispered in his ear, "it's not true." i could tell he understood but he continued to react. and the lie was perpetuated to other people, and i started to realize the ripple effect of my actions... that someone not involved with the drama, who cared about george, would hear this and be hurt by it. i needed to stop it but the lie was out of my control.
then there was some part about walking a long way down a street at night and finding my pager laying in the road.
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Category: dreamsNovember 17, 2004
sickness dreams
being sick = much sleeping
this morning dreamed that i bought two more old vw's. an old bug, convertible i think, trashed exterior but i think it ran. i don't remember much about that one.
the other one was a brown vanagon just like mine, except i determined that it probably wasn't diesel. the engine compartment looked funny but i couldn't really tell what was what. the paint was really nice on it and the engine cover was painted metal, not crappy trashed fiberglass like mine.
it ran, but the belts were really, really loose-- so loose that had this been real life and not a dream, it would not have run, or at least the water pump wouldn't have worked and driving it would have killed the engine eventually. my mom decided she wanted to drive it and i was having a hard time stopping her even though i knew i needed to keep her from driving it with those loose belts. the console-- speedo and stuff-- was off to the side and there was a sort of table in the very front. i was kind of worried about anyone driving it with that weird setup.
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later i dreamed that i was at the cafe where you cannot get what you want!
let's see. to begin with, i think i ordered potato chips, chocolate pie, and a diet pepsi. maybe something else.
first the woman working there said she wasn't sure she could give me potato chips, with the lunch rush coming up-- she might not have enough for later customers if she gave some to me now. somehow, the notion of french fries as a replacement for the potato chips came up. however, she discouraged me from getting the fries, "because they're kind of greasy." i finally convinced her to give me some fries, but she only gave me a very few. i mean, i like fries all kinds of ways, i don't care if they're greasy.
then i kind of stood there for a while, waiting for her to take action on the rest of my order. she ignored me.
so i asked for the diet pepsi again. she seemed annoyed. she walked into a back room and brought me a soda but it wasn't diet and it wasn't pepsi. so i got her attention again with some difficulty and asked for a diet pepsi again. she looked completely annoyed with me. i looked down and realized it was a pepsi. then, after she'd started to walk into the back room again, i realized it was diet. i tried to stop her but didn't succeed.
i woke up.
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i was so out of it when i went out this afternoon to get kleenex and movies that it was kind of like a dream, too. right now i'm watching '50 first dates' and drew barrymore is driving around in a bright yellow vw thing with a big hibiscus flower painted on the side. it is SO making me want a thing, or possibly a convertible old bug or ghia. but mostly, a thing.
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Category: dreamsAugust 31, 2004
invasion of the 3-inch flying cockroaches. and water.
last night after work, i went up into the attic to find a box for the monitor. i didn't find a box, but i did find a leak. it was actually extremely fortunate that i went up into the attic and was messing around in that particular corner; it looks like the leak hasn't been there long and there's no real damage to the wood. i need to call the roofers today, though.
i gave jason the monitor and then had dinner with alicia and sarah at dales. alicia was interested in the stuff we know about the relationship between food choices and mood, plus it was fun to hang out!
after i got home from dinner, i completely failed to do anything but sit on the sofa, watch hammer shows, surf, and pet the cat. which i feel kind of guilty about. which lead me to thinking, this morning, whether i could get through a day without feeling guilty? it's already too late for today.
i took a shower and, yes, one of my 3-inch flying cockroaches was occupying the bathroom when i went in there, but politely flew away so i could bathe in peace. the fact that i've become as complacent as i have about them leads me to believe that perhaps some drastic action is needed before they completely take over the household.
i'd only gotten about four hours of sleep sunday night so i went to bed at 10:30 and slept, amazingly, for a very long time. something like nine hours. i woke up twice, once at around 6am to a wildly vivid dream of carrying moses around a huge house, trying to safely get him to my room, encountering many animals which either he would hurt (bunnies) or who would hurt him (a large skunk who bit my hand and would not let go). the dream had a happy ending; i got moses to my room and he was safe and sound.
i awoke again at my 8am alarm to a vivid dream that lonnie's was not just a shop, but an astoundingly lame and run-down roadside attraction, complete with large fields of dirt, old vw beetles on hydraulic lifts that the kids could ride in, and a building containing, presumably, some kind of homemade museum, guarded by a neon red and orange snake who chased me around. i lost my purse somewhere in all the chasing and whatnot, and was so very relieved to get past the mean snake without being bitten (he looked so very poisonous), and to find spacepod, who looked quite odd, like a beetle that had been stuck in a matter transportation device with a cobra ( the car, not the snake), causing a melding of the two (a la 'the fly', the jeff goldblum version). not to look mutant gift snake/insect hybrids in the mouth, i opened his door and he started right up, even though i did not have my keys.
btw, i have a twin mattress and boxspring in my attic that, it occured to me, i have absolutely no use for. it is in the vicinity of the leak, so it may be ruined, but if i determine that it's still viable, does anyone want it?
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Category: dreamsAugust 01, 2004
many strange dreams about my mother
woke up in the middle of the night to a nightmare of an old lady having seizures and my mother coughing, coughing, coughing horribly then finally saying, "i have to admit that i am throwing up" and going into a bathroom.
then in the morning some strange dream about being in a family vacation house with many people; we were all trying to understand the strange way the many delicate dishes were stored, along the ceiling and in built-in cabinets in the living room; taking many dishes carefully out so freshly cleaned dishes could be replaced, then finding crud on the dishes and washing, washing, washing... my mother getting impatient, telling me to hurry, but i knew it was my grandparents' dishes, and they are perfectionists, so i had better get every bit of dirt out of every crevice.
some strange set of fondue forks that were all connected together, so it would be impossible for people to use them independently; and the tiki mask they were supposed to rest on was the cruddy dish, put away dirty, that i was trying to scrub the crevices of.
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Category: dreamsApril 12, 2004
bollywood resort
i dreamed this morning that i was riding around a small town that i was visiting with a guy who was gushing on about how interesting i was. "no matter what happens, you're interesting.. it's been a long time since i've met someone like you..." and i could tell that he was crushing on me (because in my dream reality, being interesting is the only requirement for being attractive. ha!!) then i realized that the guy was david, the man who runs the car show in roswell, and i felt like, "ew."
then he was driving us somewhere. i think we were in myrtle beach, though it didn't look at all like the real myrtle beach. it was very rural. we started passing some billboards that appeared to have been hand-painted, in bright colors, with lots of hindi text. the first one we saw was advertising a bollywood film festival. i thought, "i need to get a picture of that-- sarah and georg will flip out!!!" then there were more and more hindi billboards, then finally we passed what appeared to be a resort populated entirely by people from southeast asia.
there was a fabulous, bright green lawn dotted with many sunbathers, mostly women in beautiful, bright colors. i desperately wanted to get a picture, it was such a lovely sight. the david-guy and i went for a picnic, and then i wandered off back to the resort to try and get pictures. i got stuck inside, and found myself talking to a little boy. he looked indian, but said he lived in china. i asked him what town he lived in, and he said, "harrisville" (or something like that). i pondered for a moment the unlikeliness of a chinese town being named harrisville, then asked him what province that was in. he couldn't think of the province name.
then i realized it was dark, and i was unhappy because my chance to take pictures was gone.
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Category: dreamsApril 03, 2004
must.. separate.. dreams.. from.. waking.. life...
just now i had a memory that expose magically started working on my powerbook recently, so i went to hit the appropriate function keys, and as i was doing so realized that it was in a dream that expose had suddenly started working, and sure enough, it still wasn't working in real life.
i actually find it much more disturbing that i was using a computer in my dreams than i do that i confused dream memories with real ones. because really, dream memories are just chemical arrangements in my brain the same way as memories from real life are.
as far as i can recall, i've never been aware of a dream in which i used a computer, before today. extraordinary though that may seem to those who know me...
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Category: dreamsMarch 27, 2004
the three ring circus of my mind
i dreamed this morning that i was at dbt's house. he was there with a bunch of guys with him, and he didn't look like himself.
he revealed an elaborate pattern stamped in concrete squares that covered his yard. then, he began sliding the whole sheet of concrete into position-- a sheet of concrete the size of a yard.
he told me that he was preparing the house to sell, and he was also moving, and asked me if i could start helping get loads of stuff to his new place. i knew i had plans at 1, so i asked him what time it was. then suddenly there were so many people arriving at his place, lots of kids among them, and he said they were also shooting a film. he wouldn't answer my question about the time.
then karen cirillo arrived. i was really happy to see her because i haven't in so long, but she was wearing strange blue sunglasses that completely hid her eyes, and when i said 'hi', she acted unfriendly and walked into another room. i decided she must be mad at me for not keeping in touch since she's left.
i was about to tell dave that i couldn't cope with all these kids and people and all the stuff going on, but then i woke up.
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Category: dreamsMarch 26, 2004
cheap trick
i dreamed this morning that i was hanging out with cheap trick. the lead singer was actually Matthew McConaughey. he got very drunk and started throwing up, but in this really innocuous way.
i also dreamed that a male friend of mine was a physician and all of our female friends were going to see him, supposedly for professional reasons, but actually for prurient reasons. i wasn't one of his patients because i thought it would be kind of weird. but i thought maybe i should encourage pinky to go see him, because he's a very compassionate person, and she could use some compassion from a medical professional right about now.
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Category: dreamsMarch 03, 2004
radio anxiety
i had a dream last night that i was on the air and could not figure out what to play next. i kept wandering through the stacks and picking up stuff and then realizing that it was terrible, too terrible to play. finally the song that was on ran out and there was just dead air, silence, and i kept wandering through the stacks, my mind a total blank.
at the same time that horrible guy chris had called the station to make a correction to the concert calendar. he didn't say who he was but i recognized his voice. so the whole time i was wandering the stacks, i had the phone to my ear, waiting as he researched the correct information, which was taking forever. he wasn't saying anything, but just being on the phone with him was dividing my attention. i think i finally hung up on him without saying anything.
i think rick was there, too, and i felt very self-conscious about choosing just the right music, since he paid me such a nice compliment after my last show. of course, the self-imposed pressure to do a Really Good Show was crippling and was much of the reason my mind was a total blank as i thought about what to play next.
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Category: dreamsMarch 02, 2004
what does it mean when the dreadlocks are gone?
thinking about dreadlocks boy last night, it wasn't surprising that he cropped up in a dream; in the dream i remember travelling with him and two other hippies in a tiny, oddly shaped, unusual vw. we arrived at a hotel, where there was a sort of business-person's networking party going on. i realized that he'd cut off all his hair and was wearing nice slacks and a sweater vest. he snubbed me at the party and i realized that he was trying to change his life and become more conventional, more of a yuppie. so i took off and had one of my usual "travelling" dreams where i go through many halls, stairways, rooms, and other building features.
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Category: dreamsFebruary 22, 2004
nightmare user
i dreamed last night that i went to a hospital to drop off a sample for testing. there was a window with a person in it that i had to give (and explain) the sample to, but there were things blocking the window, making it quite difficult to get to that person. i was also embarassed about the nature of the sample (still am, actually, which is why i'm not putting that in here :) so i didn't want to have to yell the information out.
then there was a man also at the window, another hospital customer. he had a laptop that he needed to connect to their network for some reason. the person in the window kep trying to explain to him how to connect, but i could tell neither of them were very technical and they were miscommunicating. she asked him if he had a data card in his laptop, and he said no. he kept asking if he would be connected to the "comptron" (or something like that) which i intuitively knew must be a dialup provider. i said to him, "do you have an ethernet card?" and that he understood better than "data card". then i saw that he had an ibook, and i told him that it would be easy to connect his laptop to their high speed network.
i sat down with him to help him connect. he had a strange additional UI installed on his machine, something to help the very novice user use OSX. it had some extremely novel properties which i want to try and describe.
it seemed to have the concept of the entire screen being a physicall object that was floppy. it would flop down, but you could literally catch it with your hand and sort of flip it back up.
the dock was very strange. it would bend in an exaggerated manner, like a roller coaster, which i found made it quite difficult to use.
the colors were bright-- windows XP colors, actually-- and there was a set of extremely cartoony icons. in the dream, i recognized the artwork-- now i think they may have been based on 'nightmare before christmas' style artwork, but with bright, primary colors.
this guy would periodically step out into the hall and get into huge arguments with people. he was very agressive and dramatic in the way he would speak to them. stuff like, "YOU. CAN'T. TOUCH. THIS!!!!" but he was pretty nice to me. still, i was having a hard time getting him set up, and was afraid i'd have to endure one of his outbursts if he got frustrated with me.
after trying to figure out his computer for a while, i realized that i simply needed to bring up the network control panel. however, i couldn't navigate his computer well enough to do it myself, so i had to try and describe to him what we were looking for and how to find it. i thought i had seen it flash by on the dock, but it wasn't there.
just as i realized that we should look under the apple menu, i woke up.
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Category: dreamsFebruary 18, 2004
late for a very important date
i dreamed last night that i was a bridesmaid in a wedding; anxious not to get ready too early, i waited much too late and they almost didn't let me walk down the aisle. the dresses were simple black chiffon shifts. i was wearing my black witch shoes. i threw on the dress; no time to find and put on a bra, which i thought would be extremely obvious in that sort of dress, but i hoped it might be interpreted as sexy. i got halfway there and realized i only had one shoe on; ran back to get the other one and didn't have time to buckle it, which looked quite messy. no hose, no makeup; i was a mess. i don't remember walking down the aisle but they did let me. my old boss sally was there direct the bridesmaids.
then i dreamed that moses and i were on the road. we stopped at a mcdonalds to get a tea bag. then we were at a house and the yard was filled with snakes-- snakes everywhere i looked! i somehow got out of that part of the yard to a snake-free part of the yard. moses was anxious to get down, so i let him. i thought, "he's a cat, he can take care of himself, he knows not to go near snakes." i went inside the house to inform the owner that they had a snake problem. looking down on the yard from an upstairs window, i could see all the family pets-- several cats and two dogs-- sniffing around a row of snake holes which were quite clearly visible from my current vantage point. i regretted letting moses go off on his own.
late for a wedding and a yard full of snakes. y'all feel free to have a freudian field day with those dreams :)
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Category: dreamsFebruary 12, 2004
radio slush
i dreamed this morning that i was covering the station all night through the slush storm we were supposed to get last night. i had rearranged the station so i wasn't facing the clock (or the board) while i was djing. i finally looked at the time and it was 2:12am, which meant that i had missed the legal id and gone for over an hour without talking.
i went to do a voice break, and the slush had started to accumulate inside the station. i tried to brush it off the PSA cards but could hardly read them. then i realized there was slush and snow on the board, which i tried to brush off. i was worried it would short out.
then i woke up and looked out the window, and was quite disappointed to find that there was no slush or snow to be found.
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Category: dreamsJanuary 28, 2004
bong hit
you know, i could swear i had a dream recently where i took a bong hit.
i am sure i've had bong hits at some point in my life, but have no actual memory of any. very odd that i would dream that.
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Category: dreamsbuffy dream
i had my first buffy dream ever last night. i was reading seven seasons of buffy right before bed, so i guess that's why.
i recall being in a bedroom with angel, buffy, xander, and anya. angel was actually, secretly, one of those alien lookalikes from x-files-- you know, the kind with green blood that bubbles out and kills humans. i think buffy also had a secret evil identity-- maybe she was a vampire. anya was taking xander to the airport. i went to find a friend to help with this. i am sure i was supposed to find giles, but instead found a young woman. she suggested we hold a seance. since there was only two of us, we had to hold hands across a huge table with candles, which was awkward.
i remember thinking that anya would be in danger because she didn't know that angel was actually an alien.
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Category: dreamsJanuary 27, 2004
lunch ladies
i dreamed about the old lynch st. apartment again last night. as always, it was in need of some renovation. somehow i was now the owner-- but only of that apartment-- and i had decided to try and sell it. i think i was talking with a realtor inside the apartment. then i walked out, through an enclosed porch painted in ugly, dark colors, and i thought, "I want to give this whole place a nice coat of cream-colored paint. I'll go to the paint store and ask if they have a color called, 'vanilla bean', because that would be just perfect, a nice pale cream." by the time i finished that thought, i was at the end of the front walk, and two lunch ladies were walking up to the house. one was black and one was white, and they were wearing those puffy, translucent white hats that look like shower caps. the black one had two long buck teeth that stood out against her brown skin. i tried to make eye contact and smile, but they did not seem to be in a friendly mood.
i have no idea where the lunch ladies came from or what they might mean.
oh, and i remember thinking that that sort of house-- an old house divided into three apartments-- would be perfect for a family, each family unit could live in a different apartment, and be separate yet together.
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Category: dreamsJanuary 25, 2004
england
i had a dream last night that i was supposed to fly to england, but i was completely unprepared. i was at the airport, but i couldn't find my ticket, or my passport; i hadn't packed, and time seemed to be going by much too fast.
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Category: dreamsJanuary 19, 2004
linn
sometime this weekend i had a dream about a guy that i'm somewhat interested in; in the dream, i kept trying to catch up with him, but always seemed to be trailing behind. (gee, what could it mean? sometimes my unconscious mind is very obvious.)
anyway, i remember seeing him get in his car, and at first i thought it was a honda del sol; then i realized that it was a blue mazda. the license plate said "LINN MRX". i thought, he must be a big fan of linn audio components, and i imagined going to his house for the first time and seeing a linn turntable, and saying "even my family doesn't have this stuff!"
not that we're actually related to the linns that make linn audio components, but we probably were hundreds of years ago; i mean, there aren't that many linns in the world.
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Category: dreamsJanuary 17, 2004
first roswell anxiety dream of the year
sometime during the night-- probably around the time of my 6am cat wake-up call-- i had my first roswell anxiety dream this year. the dream usually goes like this: i'm in the car, going to roswell, and i've made no preparations, the web site isn't ready, and i haven't even brought my laptop or packed any clothes.
this one was slightly different, though, because somewhere in there i thought to myself, "oh, i'm having my roswell anxiety dream. ho-hum."
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Category: dreamsJanuary 14, 2004
house dreams
when the pager woke me up this morning, i remember being in the midst of a house dream.
i have house dreams a lot, and they almost always take place in one particular house.
it's my grandparent's house in upstate new york. this was a huge farmhouse; someone once told me it was built around the time of the civil war. my grandparents bought it sometime after all four of my uncles were born. it was situated on a good sized plot of land, most of which was rented out to a local farmer named bruce who took me on his tractor once when i was a little girl (so little that i think i was only wearing underpants).
the porch was inhabited by dozens of farm cats in the summer, mostly kittens. across the street was another patch of land covered in woods; my grandfather would mow a path through the woods leading down to a stream paved with large, round cobblestones. when i was little, and even when i wasn't so little, "across the street" was a magical fairyland inhabited by sprites and nymphs; the kittens were my playthings, and a favorite went with me everywhere.
there were dirt roads behind the house leading out into fields, looping around in ways that seemed strange to me; crumbling outbuildings with mysterious farm-specific purposes, some inhabited by the alluring carcasses of old cars and other tantalizing junk. "across the street" was also the graveyard for many old cars-- maybe spending time in the presence of dead triumphs and volkswagens during my formative years has something to do with my old car fascination now.
the house itself was so large that you really could wander through it, much as i do in my dreams. there was a room specifically for the grand piano, furnished with a formal portrait of my grandmother and an antique sofa; there was a darkroom and a tuba room and my grandfather's workshop where he built tuba mutes and restored old cameras. there were attic bedrooms with slanted ceilings, a front and a back staircase, and a front door that no one ever used. there was a cedar closet that stayed cool in the summer, and a formal front hall that housed the organ that now resides in my house.
the tv rested on a large, low table that someone once told me was used for butchering pigs. the porch included a room, decrepit and falling in on itself most of my life, later restored, call the "cheese room"-- i guess cheese was once made there.
i can remember more detail about this house than i can almost any other. in my dreams, it changes, and rarely looks the way it did in life, but i always know when i'm in that house.
anyway, in last night's dream, it actually looked pretty true to life. i don't remember much, but i think i was looking for a bathroom (and sure enough when i woke up, i had to pee). Crazy Guy Who Dissed Me-- you know, the schitzophrenic guy i went out with a couple of times last year-- was there, oddly.
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Category: dreamsJanuary 06, 2004
sleep
christa wonders what happens while she's sleeping.
i've always wondered what happens when i sleep, and i've considered videotaping myself, but i'm afraid to. what if i talk? that would be creepy, like some strange other person, not me, surfacing when my guard is down.
when i was a young teenager, i had surgery on my jaw. when i first came to after the surgery, while i was still half out, i went wild. they had to get an orderly to restrain me and they had to put me under again. i wonder if that strange wild person takes over when i sleep.
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Category: dreamsJanuary 03, 2004
swimmingly
i dreamed this morning that i was taking a college course, i think in information architecture. i remember the professor was a very appealing man, and i thought i'd seen him on the personals and passed him over, and wondered, if he was my teacher, if it was ok for me to respond to his personal now.
the entire class was on a huge sofa, very deep, and very, very wide. jason was sitting behind me. at some point, the sofa became immersed in water-- it was actually situated along the edge of a large swimming pool. i could see the lane markings in tile along the floor.
the professor had an infant, which he had to get to his ex-wife. i was disappointed that class was over, but pleased that he knew my name after just one class. i felt quite comfortable speaking up in class, which is how he knew me.
i remember thinking he was a very good teacher.
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Category: dreamsJanuary 02, 2004
bob the bunny
i dreamed this morning that i found a bunny named bob living in my bedroom. moseman got him away from me to "play" with him, but i got bob back in time. moseman did hurt bob's little foot though.
don't worry bob, i will take good care of you.
when i woke up, i scolded mo for try to kill bob.
(i also had a horrible dream that chris reappeared and wanted to go to a show with me and was acting all lovey dovey. i almost fell for it, but then remembered how awful he was and didn't. i also got a small dream revenge on him-- his always-perfect hair looked terrible. hah!)
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Category: dreamsDecember 31, 2003
my inner house needs renovation
i guess it's a good thing that i like to renovate houses.
this morning i dreamed that i visited the house of my friend h.
(h. is a friend who symbolizes something in particular to me. h. recently went on disability, i believe for depression. h. is no longer at work. h. did not return my last email. to me, h. is someone who was overcome by a force inside, a force that i see and fear in myself.)
it was an old victorian in need of a lot of renovation. i was there with some radio station people. i remember the bedroom was occupied by a california king with a dark burgundy cover. the bed was much too large for the room. wonder what that means. heh.
i remember a vast cast-iron door, like the door of a potbelly stove, except larger than a person. i was afraid to open the door, but someone else did and we found a secret staircase inside the house. i remember in the landing was h.'s diary (which i didn't read, though i thought it might shed some light on h's state of mind).
i remember thinking, "this is just the sort of house i like to work on" (which it was), and what it shame it was that h. seemed unable to make any headway with the place.
there was more, but now i don't remember. a lot of running around with radio station people, i think.
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Category: dreamsDecember 30, 2003
puppies
i dreamt last night that i was late for my radio show. i'd simply lost track of time. it was 9, and i was supposed to go on at 8. jeff herrick was on, apparently covering for me, but i thought i had better get up to the station quickly.
for some reason, i decided to walk. i had just moved, so i didn't know the area well. i was in downtown raleigh, on a major road, but in a really shitty neighborhood. i was lost. i finally asked a couple of girls, but they were not really any help. then i spotted a small group of police, a few of which were mounted on horses. i think i had a conversation with someone about how i knew that police mounted on horses would help me, because they were mounted on horses.
they agreed to help me. i thought they'd call a car, but instead they took me to the local animal shelter. it turned out that they were animal shelter officers.
i decided to adopt two dogs. i realized i wasn't thinking carefully about my ability to care for dogs, just that i liked the dogs and wanted to take them home. they had everything there i needed, crates, leashes and collars, everything. they packed the dogs up into a backpack for me so it would be easier for me to carry them.
i think it was somewhere in that dream that i spotted a remake of the old citroen 2cv. it was very similar to the new beetle, but the roof was shaped differently, and the windows were the color of the body of the car. i saw a red one and a yellow one. i waved at one from my beetle and he waved back, because our cars were so similar.
then moseman woke me up because he was hungry
i had another dream. i've lost most of it, but i recall being taken through a building with many rooms and staircases, all panelled in handsome, dark wood. it was a very natural place. then a young woman who was an office worker in a brightly lit office took us down one particular staircase outside her office to the jungle.
in the jungle, we followed a path to where the natives were. we could do something with these quills that had a bit of feather only at the end, and which had been dipped in something that i later decided was the scent mark of their tribe, but we had to pay some money. there was a feeling of threat in the air, but nothing bad happened.
i didn't have any money on me so i didn't take a quill. back out of the jungle and in the building, i talked to jacob. he thought it would really be better if i had a quill, as he did. he had some money so he lent it to me and i tried to go back for a quill.
i got lost in the many rooms and confusing staircases, but eventually ran across the young woman. i tried to convince her to take me back to the staircase that would lead to the jungle, but she was dubious that the quill offer would still stand. the natives were unpredictable and might hurt me if i went back.
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Category: dreamsDecember 29, 2003
chunky shoes
ooh, i had a dream last night that i had a pair of those really, really chunky platform shoes that were big in the 90's. i was realizing that i needed to get rid of them, but was feeling kind of an attachment to them.
i actually am hanging on to the spacegrrl boots-- you know, those silly silver chunky boots with the 3-inch soles-- i know they're way out of style now, and i probably won't be wearing them except maybe for halloween or the alien ball, but they're basically a museum piece now :) maybe i'll even display them in the hallway with all my VW stuff once that goes up.
of course, if i ever have a daughter, i can pass them on to her and they'll be the coolest, most retro thing she's ever seen. hell yeah!
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Category: dreamsDecember 04, 2003
i blogged til i dreamed of blogging...
i had a dream earlier this week that i saw a cellphone advertised-- i think on amazon. the ad said, "Best for Blogging!". i was curious, so i clicked on the ad, and found that the phone cost $8000.
i thought wow, some people are really making blogging pay!
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Category: dreamsDecember 03, 2003
madisgascar, land of tarika sammy and lemurs
i've been forgetting to report that i had a nice dream this week, to counterbalance the two nightmares.
i dreamt that i was in madagascar. in the dream, i thought of it as the land of tarika sammy . (i didn't think about the lemurs until after i woke up, but madagascar is also the only natural home of lemurs.)
in my dream, madagascar was a beautiful, tropical place. i was in a city that was beautifully manicured with a lot of nature and parks and old buildings. there were almost no people, but i was just fine with that. it meant that i could lay down in the grass if i felt like it, and no one was there to make me feel like i was doing something strange.
there were these tall columns, as tall as trees. they were hollow and had decorative carving around the top. they were musical instruments. the wind would blow across the top and the columns would make a sound-- like blowing across the top of a bottle. the columns were different sizes to make different pitches, and they were sized such that they would create a nice harmonic sound when they all sounded at once.
in the dream i thought, oh, that's the sound that tarika sammy uses in their music a lot.
i woke up thinking that i should play some tarika sammy on my radio show yesterday, but i forgot to.
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Category: dreamsDecember 01, 2003
another scary one
I was awakened last night by another nightmare. I dreamt that I had killed a man, and gotten away with it. I think the way I killed him was I hit him over the head in the shower with an iron skillet. I'm not sure how I got away with it. In the dream, I could hardly remember the incident itself or why I had wanted to kill him. I was feeling terrible guilt. I think my father was the detective in charge of the case. I was considering confessing to try to relieve the guilt. When I woke up I had to ask myself if I had really killed a man.
Of course, I have not-- in fact, before I went to sleep last night I was reflecting on the fact that I'm unable to kill anything larger than a cockroach. There was an incident a long time ago with one of our family cats; the cat was toying with an injured mouse, and seemed to grow bored with it. I was afraid the cat wasn't going to finish it off, and I couldn't stand to watch the whole long drawn out thing. I thought I should just break the mouse's neck, and I tried but just couldn't bring myself to do it, so I left and hoped the cat would finish it off.
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