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November 09, 2004
here we go...
all those years of reading, going to conferences and seminars, being the "make it pretty" girl on the team, learning how to run usability tests, learning how to be a database programmer (of sorts), all of that is suddenly being brought to bear, all at once.
it's intense. i'm not sure what will happen next. possibly they will need to clone me.
:|:
and outside of that world, i am being highly social, but it's not really giving me the lift i'd hoped for. i still feel kinda down, and fear tapping out all of my social energy in one week-long burst. i think about all the people i've ignored or partially ignored this year and i think, "now is the time to do something about that", yet i still don't have the energy for additional people. i want to put it all into the current ones.
i consumed a lot of sugar around halloween, and some more this weekend, and i think i'm paying a price for that with my mood. i think sugar in general brings me down a lot, not necessarily in the form of a direct crash with the shakes and all, but just in a general way. so i'm hoping that a return to my former sugar-free lifestyle is going herald a return to my happy-go-lucky self. you remember her, right? good, because i kinda don't...
i did experience a hell of a crash in asheville, and it was actually from caffiene on an empty stomach in the morning, not from sugar. mary watched me go all non-verbal and glassy-eyed in the early girl before the OJ kicked in; i said to her, "i am crashing", because i could tell she wasn't getting it, and she said, "wow, i've never seen this before", and looked at me in wonderment. i guess it's been a while since anyone has.
i told her the story of crashing in asheville with craig and realizing that i had to do something about my hypoglycemia. then my cheeseburger came and all was right with the world again.
Posted by lisa at November 09, 2004 05:58 PM | TrackBack
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